We have all felt the pain of someone who has mistreated us, taken advantage of our grace or was just plain mean. The universe has a divine plan to heal us from these hurts if we will just release it.
I was graced with a sign from above today as I left work to heal a past hurt of mine. Two years ago I left a terribly abusive work situation thinking I would never return to this sort of work again. Low and behold, spirit had plans in store for me to release my pent-up feelings and move on to something much better. After chasing an education I wanted for a long time, my team placed me at a client doing a job I thought was beyond reality for me. It was perfect. And in the same building where the offending company now resides. At first I thought this was torture. Then, as I started to notice people I once worked with I thought it was a plan for me to return (wrong). Now, months later I am seeing the woven cloth of events that have allowed me to see signs of my impending healing and upcoming release.
During this 10 month process I was asked to deal slowly with my feelings of anger, bitterness hate and disgust slowly. As I went to work each day I saw remnants and relics of my past in the elevator, hallway and restaurants. Will these people be friendly to me? Or will they only remember the hurtful things said to and about me by a manager filled with his own rage and insecurities? 9 times out of 10 I was met with a welcoming glance, smile or conversation.
Feeling safer, I became more willing to release the past and move forward. Now the big stuff is coming faster than I could have ever imagined.
Yesterday I saw the colleague who graciously walked me to my car when I was at my wits end on my self-administered last day; a kind man who has a special way of smoothing the rough edges without upsetting the apple cart. Another smiling face, and I am blessed again.
Today on my way out of the building I saw him … my abuser … and he didn’t even notice me. As I rode the escalator down he was riding the other escalator up encased in his habitual aloof bubble. A chill ran down my spine. A thousand memories flashed through my mind. But I was okay, I was breathing and walking away. This is over and I now exist in a world that is one-hundred and eighty degrees the opposite of where I was the day I walked away.
As he rode the escalator up it was as if I was releasing the entire situation to heaven. It was over. I was free. Whew.
And so it begins, life after Gabor. It is the best life I have ever known and I intend to never waste a moment of it.
Love and light,